Close your eyes
With everything behind you
Please don't cry
coz I'm always there beside you
To wipe your tears to comfort you
and Say Goodnight

Dream tonight
Hope you will see me there
I'll hold you tight
Just like your teddy bear
To be with you till time is through
and Say Goodnight

The stars above
They shine for you
Make a wish and It will come true
You lay on your bed
and I'll tuck you in
and Kiss you Goodnight.

A song that written by Yin's friend and loved by Yin.

Monday, October 01, 2007

Lies.

The world work like this. No ppl will ever admit they've done something wrong. They will always find a so-called reason (excuse?) to cover up. Saying sorry is worse than asking them go die. This is very much applicable to ask them to tell the truth.

The beauty of Lies is it can not hurting at all and makes ppl want drown in it more and more. However, once the real ugly fact discloses, those words ppl hold strong belief in will turn ppl into an idiot immediately. Yes, I said Idiot.

The story goes like this...

He told me he is trying to forget her. He miss me. I'm the only one on his mind now. If she don't trigger his feelings, he won't think of her or miss her. He told me I'm not a substitute of her. He never took me lightly.
I knew he was tight with money in game, if I'm gonna directly lend him money, he might not accept. So I asked him to do my zakum helmet quest for me and to charge me at market rate.
On his birthday, he went out with frens to celebrate. When he was home, he told me that from that day onwards, he will set his priority right.
He was sick on one thursday and didn't go to school asked me not to worry about he. He is gonna start being busy in school work.

The story ended like this...

On his birthday, he went dating with her, and, he might be hugging the girl he likes alot and sms me.
He didn't rest on thursday or might have rested awhile, I don't know. In fact, he trained a lv50 character with that girl he likes alot in 3 days. On the 3rd day, he completed the zakum helmet quest for her. Mine? After near 2 months, Nope. He didn't even realise I've changed my account password.
Few days later, he is officially with the girl he likes alot now. Grats.
Money I paid to him before? I don't expect to get it back le. What I've given to he, he can never pay me back.

More to come...

A guy who is after me now, is his friend, completed the quest for me.

That girl he likes alot and with now, actually offer to the guy who is after me now, he can huggs and kiss her if he want when they go out.

Oh ya. I was defeated by that girl. No. I should say there was not a battlefield at all. So without fighting, I've already lost.

So let me ask this, do I look like an idiot to you or am I actually an idiot to you?

You should be speechless. So I shall continue...

If you have decided to leave, at least tell me that you're gone, if I'm that important to you like you've said to me before.

Lastly, if ppl ever want to lie to me, at least, don't let me find out the truth forever.

5:10:00 PM

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Ex-Bf Attack.

One day when I woke up feeling not too good and not too bad. I opened my window, took a deep breathe, brushed myself up and cook a nice breakfast for a start. Everything seems just nice.

Is that really good?

I don't know understand, as usual, again. Does it really bother you, my dear ex-bf, whether I'm good or bad or just nice, after when you have chose to vanish from my life in the past?

I completely agree with the phrase that Girls tend to forgive rather than forget. I forgive you for hurting me in the past, but, I cannot forget you. That's because I don't want to deny that I do have a period of happy times with you. So please stay good in my precious memory and do not turn bad?

Hey, mY ex-bf, if you are leading a great life now and having a great gf with you, you really should not think of me again. When you do, you hurt me again. That's because when I thought I'm nearer to forget that pain, you appears again. I could not help but to miss you again.

Yes, I'm smiling in all the photo that I put in and I look happy. If that makes you feel better.

9:55:00 PM

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

Winner.

Meat leg, this is a post specially dedicated to you. Huggs. Jia yOus ok? <33

Once upon a time, there was a very grand running competition held. In this competition, there is only ONE winner, and the winner will get the most beautiful prize in the world that everybody will want it. Lots and lots of people from different part of the world rushed into taking part in the competition for the prize, disregarding that the competition is full of danger - most of people from the past that took part in the competition died during the competition.

The competition has started. It's a long journey ahead...

All of the participants first have to run through a very long, straight and tight long pathway. 25% of the participants were down as runners were all squeezing their way through, by stepping on participants to be the first. All that they have in their mind is the prize.

Follow on, runners have to go through an area where the sunlight is strong and full of mists. Runners could only continue running depend on their senses of direction as they have to protect their eyes by shutting them. In this area, another 25% of the participants were down, as they could not find their way through.

The journey continues... Days passed...

The leftover participants entered a jungle and they had to cross the jungle to reach the next destination. In this jungle, wild animals, such as snakes, tiger, bear etc., that can take your life within a second were running anywhere, unawared. Runners have to find their own food to keep them from running. 30% of the participants were either been eaten or killed by wild animals. 5% of the participants lost their way.

Now only 15% of the participants were left. They managed to cross the jungle and reach a swamp. In this swamp, crocodiles were the king. Run and prize blinded all the runners mind. Sadly, at the end of the swamp, only 10 people were left in the competition.

The 10 people continued to run. In the new stage, they were needed to run in an long long arc. Tiring, but for the prize, they ran.

Next destination - plateau. That is where the winner will stand up and receive their prize.

Finally......

Winner is up!!!

Do you know who is the winner?

Meat leg, the winner is you and you have received the prize. Know what is that?

To be born in this world. Isn't that a great prize?

I've just gave you a lesson on how sperm reaches egg =x Song bo?

Jia yOus in exam ba!! huggs. You were the winner before. I believe you sure can make it one!!

10:02:00 PM

Saturday, May 19, 2007

Category.

Once heard ppl say this to me, guys put girls into 3 categories: ex-girlfriend (good friend?), potential girlfriend (woo, big breast girls pls) and girlfriend.

Let me reply to this. Girls put guys into 7 categories: ex-boyfriend (sex buddy/potential bf when my new bf dump me), potential boyfriend (practically all the good-looking guys i come across), boyfriend, father, brother (you can never be my bf, but pls treat me eat dinner still), friend (i don't have to act cute act shy in front of you right? you saw me drool when sleep be4), rubbish (stop contacting me!).

IMPORTANT NOTES: Those brackets are some craps i added to make the topic more interesting lOls.

Alot of things happen recently. I'm out of words. No matter how good a person appears to be, they can be very cruel too. They can be so cheap till do all sorts of thing just to revenge.

Then this question came into my mind - " If 2 person are tied by Lust, could it be Love? "

Then the answer came. No. It's a desire.

You only wants it and when ppl is fighting over the same thing with you. Winning is the key.

This isn't Love.

7:58:00 PM

Sunday, March 11, 2007

Art of Bastard.

I'm back in Australia again. Posting blog entry in Singapore is totally not very much possible. Attachment in Alexandra Hospital has been tiring and fun. Haa ~ heard alot stories when I was back in Singapore. Come to surprise, I have changed alot, or maybe, I should say, people around me never really change? I am not sure. Met some new people, but, was not able to meet everyone I wanted to. I also bumped into alot people on street.

The feeling is weird.
Anyway....

Is being bastard a gifted capability of everyone since birth?

To all my dearest girls,

Boys can say anything for getting you to bed. Words doesn't cost any money.
Please do not have that horrbile thinking that the boy will turn out to what different from what you see, hoping that he will turn into that person you have hoped him to be someday.
Saying I love you, doesn't cost money also do not let the boy have a responsibility to take care of you. After bed, he probably will forget your name babe.

Girls, you all should know it, why letting yourself fall into the dark and cry, when you actually can turn back and walk to the lights? Friends' words cannot help you much, you have to willing to wake up yourself.

Boys' Love comes in percentages. 99.99% for the girl he really love and can die for, and 0.01% for the girl who likes him, treat him good, and never want to be with her, when he is in love with that girl he willing to die for.

He is looking for what he lacked from the girl he willing to die for from you. He can always say he really love that girl, but next moment sleep with you.
Girl, you know what? It's not because of Love. He needs console, and just nice you are there being nice to he. It's not your problem if he met wrong girl because, he can always stop being together with that girl and continue to feel miserable.

Please treasure yourself and protect yourself. Nobody can snatch you from you.
You worth the world greatest Love.

To all my dearest boys,

Girls can love 2 boys at the same time and not knowing what exactly she wants. She will always tends to want both to stay together by her side. In fact, nobody will never want a person that treat him/her well not by their side. Girls like people to pay for their everything.

Girls will always go back to their ex bf or people that used to treat her good, when her new relationship don't work out, or met wrong new guys. However, girls never want to be together with their ex bf and people used to treat her good. They only need people to give her concern that she wanted until she find the next new better guy.

If girl sleep with you again, does not mean she still love you, it's because, sleeping with you again does not increase the number of guy she slept with before, as she already slept with you in the past. A stolen moment for her to feel not lonely.

I am not willing, but still, I have to admit, I am a Bastard too.

It's ironical. Can it be plausible?
I am trying very hard to convice or rather confuse myself, I should be doing this, and not let the guilty feeling haunt me. I am not sure when I will have enough courage to face it or maybe I will never have. It's never right or wrong from the beginning.

To that person in mY heart,

I am hurt too.
I really love you and want you to stay happy always, but, I will be the person who make you sad in the future. I try all my best to protect you, but, I will be the person who break your heart eventually. You know?
You should really keep a distance from me perhaps, but, I am selfish, I could not let you go.
If your happiness is mY treasure, I cannot do it.
I cannot say I'm sorry. I also cannot ask you to forgive me.
I let you go...

7:08:00 PM

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

Mustafa Shock.

Finally got that energy to write blog again. Lol. Since I am back in SG, everything has been upside down. I cannot believe this. I spent all my holidays being sick =(

I don't really enjoy going out to celebrate festival eve. Crowds horrify me. Just to think of squeezing my way through people, and get physically close to unknown, I rather stay at home, on my fan, sing song loud loud inside my room.

((My mother said I sound like some Middle-age Crisis woman.))

Talking back about my christmas eve, I was with JJ again. This is the 3rd year le. Snowy still so active and cute (his dog). I must say, JJ is really devoted in cooking. Lol. I love it when I don't have to cook much and get to eat nice food.

On christmas day itself, JJ brought me to Mustafa coz I need a new luggage bag. God! It was the most horrible thing to do. Crowds and air are killing me straight. I felt I walk like a snail, people touches me, I goes into my shell. Lol.

Anyway, I want to talk about the Mustafa Toilet.

Firstly, boys and girls toilet are not located at the same floor.
I spent about 10 minutes, I found the boys toilet.
I spent another 5 minutes squeezing my way through humans, then I found the girls toilet.
To the shock of my life, when I walked out of the toilet cubicle, the person who was using the cubicle beside me, is a MAN. Yes, BOY.
He smiled to me.

At first, I thought I've entered the wrong toilet. Then I went out to check the sign. I was so sure that I was in the girls toilet.

Hmmm. What's the whole point of me squeezing my way so hardly to get a girls toilet while I could walk into the guys one?

Eeeks.

4:22:00 PM

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Irritations.

I am back in Singapore.

I've put 'Home Sweet Home' and a SG phone number as a display nick in msn, isn't that obvious I am in Singapore? So, kindly stop msg me and ask me 'Hey, are you in Singapore?' Replying 1 or 2 people is fine, but replying more than 50 people, is a trouble.

So for ppl so have small eyes and no brain, I have finally come to a conclusion of changing my display nick to 'Yes, I am back in Singapore.'

I am VERY BUSY settling down.

I will share with you my schedule.

25th Nov, Sat - Reached SG at night. Went eat dinner then go home sleep.

26th Nov, Sun - 6am I received a call from a friend that I haven't seen for 2 yrs and gotta know that he happens to be in SG for winter vacation and he is flying back to USA at night. So, in the noon, I met my relatives and have lunch. Evening time I was in Changi Airport again. Night I went to my ex-workplace and eat dinner since I am already downtown.

27th Nov, Mon - I was suppose to be in Malaysia settling my Bank Account stuff, but I could not crawl out of my house. Finally today, I got to eat dinner at my house with my mother.

28th Nov, Tues - This is the day I MUST crawl out of my house to Malaysia. Night time I've got to meet my best friend of my life - Jason.

29th Nov, Wed - I have to buy my air ticket to go back to Australia. Airport tax is rising as each day passes. I need to do my hair cut. I've got more than 10 months nv cut my hair.

30th Nov, Thurs - Can I rest at home today? I am sick but I don't even have a pair of shoes in Singapore except high heels.

2nd Dec, Sat - I want to go back to NYP to take a look at the Band. Music was used to be my life for past 20 years. Night time I am having a dinner appointment which I have arranged 2 months before hand.

4th Dec, Mon - I have to get my ass down to Alexandra Hospital Clinical Laboratory and start my attachment for my next 2 months.

I am ULTRA TIRED.

Hey guys, I didn't even got time to sleep and unpack my luggage, what makes you think that I should go out with you first instead of accompanying my family to eat a meal?

I am sick I am sick I am sick.

Phone Calls Endlessly.

I would like phone calls, but now, I only feel like getting my phone off Permanently till I've settled down.

Getting more than 30 phone calls a day from 20+ people, trust me, you won't like it. I've repeated the same conversation from this morning 9am to 9pm for 20 times+.

Don't ever come and ask me why I never call you, because, I don't even have time to shit now. I am so amazed that my phone is quiet for more than 15minutes now!

Due to phone call congestion, I've removed the number from msn display nick.

Conclusion.

I will contact you slowly when I get all those important things done.

Can I have some time to shit now?

I am happy that I am back in Singapore but mY life sucks now?

2:13:00 AM